nothing really matters

i told you that
nothing really matters,
but what i really
meant to say is that
you are the only one
that matters to me.
i don't care what people say
about us, because the
only thing i know is in
making you happy.
i hate seeing you in
sadness, when i see you
in sadness my heart
starts to ache.

best friend

you i considered
to be my best friend,
i told you everything.
i told you all my
secret, things i
never told anyone.
but now you turned on
me, the time i needed
you was now, but you are
not here for me to
seek your help.
you've abandoned me,
you left without
telling me that you
were leaving.
now i don't have
someone to call my
best friend, someone
i could go to for
help.
i'm alone once again,
like i've always been
before you came
along.

confused

i can't seem to please
anyone.
everything i do
seems to have a
consequenst.
if i try to please one
person, i hurt someone
else's feeling.
so if i try to please, myself
i hurt the people i love.
the only thing that i
could do is that to stay
miserable for the rest
of my life and not please
anyone or myself.
i messed up everyone's life
including my life by leaving
home and try to make it
on my own.
no one supports what i do,
or backs me up.
everyone tells me fuck you,
you can't make it on your own.
and we don't believe in you.

again

couldn't go to sleep,
because i keep thinking
of you.
i want to hear your voice
once more, because
i like the way you
talk.
or better yet
i would rather see
you again, because
i like the way you
look no matter
what you wear.
i want to see your
beatiful smile once
again.

my life

all my life
i felt, that i
was alone in
this worl.
i felt that i
was the odd
one from my
family.
i hated the
special treaments that
i have been
getting from everyone,
just because i
was born different
from the rest
of them.
i hated that
everyone has been
and are still
trying to tell me
what to do,
just because i'm
different.
but i could do anything
i want, because
i found you
again.